Going through a very rough time (depression) and could use virtual encouragement from strangers.

Hi. I feel pretty silly doing this, but I also feel so desperate and need something to provide relief. I live in Houston and figured feeling like there is someone in the same place that sees this is comforting in itself.

I have pretty severe depression so going out and functioning like a normal human being is incredibly hard for me. It takes a huge toll. I have a partner that I care about deeply. But, I’m exhausting them. And I understand. There is a lot of guilt I feel for putting a wedge between us because of my anxiety and making them unhappy. I’d do anything for this person, but for some reason can’t seem to just function like a normal human and have normal interactions for them. They need that and I can’t do it with them, so I have to stay behind a lot.

Today is one of those days and I just wish I could do it. I wish I could just have conversations without it being so hard. I come off as mean but I just feel so terrified of people. I don’t know why.

I start to do well then it goes downhill, over and over. Every time I think I’ve hit my lowest point, I get even lower. I want to be happy. I want to get better.