Anyone know any good easily available resources for mental help that aren’t the suicide hotline?

while i'm terribly depressed rn, i doubt i'm gonna do anything, but the longer i stay in this situation the worse it's gonna get. i'm pretty much fine most of the time til one thing goes wrong and whatever i used to feel magnifies 10 fold

Morbid thought, it's just that i don't believe people who kill themselves even want to die, really they want to live, no person is born wanting to die. It's kinda the issue i feel towards people who say "Oh, i'd never kill myself" like it's easy to say that when times are good, but who we become at our lowest while poor sick, abused etc is someone entirely new.

Nobodies immune to that kind of influence. so i still wish to talk to someone who can help me, even if i have no plans right now; becuase i can't really see any other resources and it's kinda sad how theres more ammo to find to making oding it easier with no one around to stop me vs the other way around.

anytime i try to ask for help online i just ignored or people get mad at me and blast "Get some help" "Seek therapy" as if i don't want to do that and haven't considered, my life circumstances make that difficult. i'd say my depression is more societal or enviornmental than internal, aka there's not much i can change about myself that'll make my situation better. as long as i remain here no matter how much money or hobbies, meditation whatever i accrued, i'll always be growing alarmingly more and more stressed

while slightly disarming the suicide hotline is ultimately unhelpful a lot of the time to me because it just plays out like a codec call in metal gear solid, where conversations are driven by wording the last word person A spoke as a sentence.

"Ay, snake, we need you to sneak in and disable those bombs on sector G

"Snake: Sector G?

"Yeah, it has big boss' fingerprints all over em, be sure to be careful which wires you cut! bomb diffusing ain't easy!"

Snake: Easy?

"Yeah, in your dreams! Now quit foolin around and snuff out those bombs!"

Snake: Bombs?

"YES! we need you to sneak in and disable hose bombs on sector G"- X infity

so TL:DR does anyone know any other ways to just talk to someone that isn't the suidice hotline that's doable for someone broke with no one while still making actual progress rather than run in a circle else that could help me?